Mannie The Poet

Dirty Reality

I thirst

For conversations

Only to find

Myself speaking

To my imaginary friend,

I am lonely!!!

Fearful you close your heart

Because you think

I am going to rob you

Of your precious,

But I am no thief,

I am just hungry...

Still closing access

To your four chambers

Of your heart

Making it numb

To whom I am,

I will not ask you for money....

You see me

Digging inside of dumpsters

Behind restaurants

In dark alleys,

You point at me laughing,

I have lost my dignity...

Pride no longer harbors

In my ego,

I am lost to society

Because society shuns my existence,

But I breathe

Life into humanity...

Your ¢25 of sliver

Will not change

My reality,

It will only cause more pain,

I refuse to

Become a mockery...

My skin is aged

From stress and weary

Hair unmanageable

And my beard becomes tangled

From not being able to shower

I need to cleanse my reality….

The roof over my head

Houses many souls

Yet they believe

We steal from one another

Life isn’t easy being homeless

Yet I still see stars through cloudy skies….

I sleep in corners train stations

Where I inhale the stench of piss

I’m confined to parameters

That renders no excuse

You spit on me because you fear my existence

But I am not going to harm you….

I am a simple soul

With complexed situations

I talk to myself hoping to find my humanity

I am tired of being worth less then dirt

I pray each night for death

Only god keeps me on earth

My cloths are dirty

Stained with shame

I wonder how many nights

I still have until god comes to rescue me

I embrace this thought

But beginning to wonder does he exist

I come from humble beginnings

But never felt hunger like this

My stomach aches for lack of food

No nurturance in dumpsters

Only foul pieces of 7 hour meat

Yet I swallow my pride and eat it

I wonder what I have done

To become this way

Tried my hardest to live life

But the reprints of suffering

Has become my way to extinction

I am fading away from civilization

You see me not

Because I am not worthy to look at

Less then a man

I am dirty, I am hungry

I am your unwanted reality

I am homeless…..

EDEN

I want to be devoured in your garden of youth

Just so I can plant the seeds of our future

In your heavenly creation

And while I’m there I leave part of me

Deep inside of your spirit world just to let you know

That my life is incomplete without you

I’ll leave lilies and rose petals at the opening of your sanctuary

Have them tossed in front of you with each step you take

Baby, you are more then just royalty to me

I’ll knell in front of you like you deserved to be worshipped

Your queen-doom deserves a king like me

I’ll bless her royal flower feeding it nutrients of my heart

I hear your whispers late at night as your uhhhhs and ahhhs

Turn into oh my god, and I’ll, well baby I’ll just smile

Knowing that the pleasure I give gives you hope

Hope for more to come, because baby I am playing for keeps

Let me kiss you where mother earth blesses you with life

Because right there is the sweetest nectar life can give

Baby I don’t believe you understand the patents’ of your berry

See deep inside lies the passion of our love

When we join and dance this dance of us

Our spirits intertwines as our universe becomes one

The sun can not outshine our galaxies

We melt Glaciers with our bodies

Burn a hole in our ozone layers

Burning down every fibber of our being

Just to become one…

Oneness, as our creator intended us to be

Because when we make love our spirits become blessed

With gods anointment

So baby just drip your juices on my forehead

Take my hand and place it deep inside your Eden

So I too can bless you with the same spirit you blessed me with

I can taste you in my soul even when you are far away

You are one of a kind and baby

I just wanted you to know, you are what keeps me breathing

When I Cry

Hush, little baby, don't say a word.

Papa's gonna buy you a mockingbird

And this is the song he hears in his head

Each time that papa picks up that bat

He swung as hard as he could

Left ribs bruised and broken

As he was practicing his homerun swings

Batter up

And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Papa's gonna buy you a diamond ring

And I remember that ring

The one that landed in my face

Time after time again

Leaving imprints of his one karat

Deep with in my flesh

I know it cuts deep

I still have the scars to show it

And if that diamond ring turns to brass,
Papa's gonna buy you a looking glass

That he did bought a looking glass

Just to burn my skin

He used to call me out on a hot summer day

Told me to lift up my shirt

Just to see if that theory was true

Letting the sun burn my skin until it smoked

The pain was unbearable

I never could finish this song that

Reminded me of how he beat me

Time after time I’ve cried

Hate became embedded into my soul

I always wondered how I made it this far

I guess you could say it was my love for life

Or maybe that I envisioned him dead

I have plotted his murder in my head

Knew exactly how to do it

A 10 year old should never have these thoughts

Premeditated I smiled each time he beat me

I knew his fears, made a pact with self

Never allowing anyone to hurt me like that again

I became a ruthless teen

Knew violence all too well

Hell I was accustomed to it

Knew it first hand

Was the product of a father

Who could hold his liquor

So he abused the seed he planted

Never expecting it to haunt him

I’ve had my share of hurt

Cried tears that could fill oceans

But deep down inside I am still

A little boy wanting to know what it is like

To have Papa embrace me with love

Like daddies are supposed to

But at times I still hear this song in my head

Hush, little baby, don't say a word.
Papa's gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Papa's gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass,
Papa's gonna buy you a looking glass

And that is where I cry!!!!

*italic words are song

Because of You
Its not the depth of our love
that keeps us strong
its the possibility
of what if

what if we just lay here
and held each other
what if we just have a conversation
and for once in our life just love with our words

caressing each one of them
like tomorrow doesn't exist
we could spend our eternity laying in bed
forget that we lay in our nakedness

it would just be you and I
and our thoughts
that give us sexual healing
No penetration need

what I speak of is mental love
the type of love
that lets us keep believing

of the possibility of what if

see we forgot that in order to make love
we got to give love
what if we just laid in bed this evening

candles surrounding us

No TV nor radio
and watch the sun go down
and when the sun and the moon
trade places

I kiss you....
mentally
and tell you I want to explore
the best of you

not just your nakedness
but also your
beautiful
deficiencies

see I love you...
I love you
for who you are
and not what you are

I love you
for your perfect imperfections
it is them that have me
yearning for you.

I wanna taste your delightful thoughts

Letting them penetrate my intellect

Influencing me with gestures

Of warm embraces

But to be honest

I just want to hold your everything

Kissing your forever's

Until infinity

I want to stroke your ego

Like I'm making love to you

Pleasing your fantasies

Like they do in romance novels

Touching you but not physically

Letting you know

That no matter what

You are my everything

When I say good-bye

I miss you

When I close my eyes

I want to dream of nothing more

Then you

It is you that has me fining

Like a crack head

But not because of sex

To put it simply

It is you that has me breathing

And with each breath

I take

I breathe you into my existence

Because you are everything

I ever need, wanted, and envisioned

In a woman

It is because of you..... that I love you